A sister (let’s call her Agnes) approached me today and shared with me a testimony of another sister whom recently came to visit us from Hong Kong. She is newly saved and she is on fire (spiritually). She exercised the gift of tongue during our prophecy session on Sunday.

She had a bad habit which was hard to rid off. She could kick off all bad habits except for that since she accepted God into her life. She prayed about it but it didn’t help. She was very much like me. There were so many other testimonies from other brothers and sisters being able to kick off the habit either once they were baptised or received the Holy Spirit. I have asked God many times why he took the habit away from them and not me even when at that time they didn’t request for it to be taken away. I wanted him to do unto me like what he did for them.

The Hong Kong sister (let’s call her Joan) had the same question as me. This has been on my mind lately as well until Agnes approached me and told me how Joan finally got rid of the habit.

Sometimes when we pray, we may not have enough faith. This is when approaching the elders for prayers will help us. Joan told Pastor of her problem and he suggested that they should pray together. Right after the prayer, Joan got rid of the habit. In fact, she detested it. This is exactly what I want - to detest it as much as I can with all my heart.

But I still could not understand why God wanted to put me through this battle. Agnes told me that sometimes God needed testimonies. If this habit is so hard for me to get rid off and after months of battle and I get rid of it not because I can do it with my own strength but through God’s strength, it will be a good testimony to all. The thing is that I must want to get rid of it with all my heart. This never did occur to me and what she said untied the knot in my heart. I feel much better now and I know that God has his reasons for everything.

To kick this habit, it boils down to how sincere I am. I can’t ride on other’s faith to enter the Gates of Heaven. But with sincerity, I will be able to get rid of it even if my faith is not deep enough by asking the elders to pray with me.

I’m going to ask for a prayer next Sunday. Really hope that it will be a victory.